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I'm glad things have been picking up in the 'lack of guys department'. It's fun to be online and talk to some very interesting people. Nobody really awesome has come up in the last couple of days though. It's ok, because I consider the on-line crowd practice dating. I know 99% of them I wouldn't want to go out with, but hey, a little hanging out never hurt anyone.


The past few times I went out to the club I've been feeling a little down about it. I have the invisible feeling. I feel like nobody's even looking at me, and I know I'm a confident pretty girl. The guys that do look, are usually old enough to be my dad, or hideous enough to audition for Shrek.

I enjoy going to the bar with my guy friends, but they all unwillingly act as a giant group of cock blocks. Any sane guy will assume that one of them is my boyfriend. Which sucks because I don't want to be any of them's girlfriends! Lol. I have a feeling one of them is interested in being more than friends, and although I really love his personality I am just not physically attracted. God damnit why does this have to be so hard.

This morning I woke up so irritated and cranky. I had a dream that a guy I dated last summer was at this party and totally chewed me out (and for no reason because he's the one that dumped me! lol). So the conclusion is, as fast as things have been 'picking up', they've nosedived to new lows. GAH!